In grade school, I happily socialized with all of my classmates. We shared our boxed lunches, confidently sang during music class and laughed during recess. I could not wait to go to school the next day. We were one big happy family.
But something changed the day I started sixth grade. I had gone through a growth spurt during the summer months, and when I walked into class the first day, I was taller than everyone, including the boys. I was self-conscious and tried to sit as much as possible.
That was not the only change I noticed that year. The class used to play together at recess. Now everyone was playing in groups. The girls and boys I had played with since kindergarten had formed cliques.
The same girls I had called my best friends no longer wanted to play hopscotch or climb the monkey bars with me. They had chosen other friends, and I was no longer one of them.
I turned to other cliques and was turned away for various reasons. I wasn’t athletic enough, did not wear designer clothes, wore glasses, not thin enough – the list went on and on.
I did eventually find a core group of girls who became my close friends and still are to this day. But as I continued to walk the same halls and sit in the same classrooms as my former playmates, my heart ached from rejection.
Leah also fully understood the pain and humiliation of rejection. Every day she lived with a man who was clearly in love with another woman. She must have felt the anguish of rejection every time Jacob showed affection towards Rachel and not her.
For years she yearned for Jacob’s love. She thought that he would finally love her if she bore him a son but this did not happen. She prayed at the birth of her second and third sons for Jacob’s love. But this, too, never transpired.
Psalm 147:3 (NIV)
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.
Finally, Leah changed her focus. Instead of praying for Jacob’s love, she gave her praises to God. After years of feeling the pain of rejection, she gave it all to God who removed her pain and replaced it with His love. She knew she was worthy to be a daughter of God and that gave her the strength to go on.
Rejection is a painful experience and something we have all had to face at some point in our lives. If we let it, rejection can affect the way we see ourselves and lower our self-worth. But if we give it to God he will cleanse our wounds and make them whole again.
Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
When Leah gave her pain to God, He was able to turn that pain into something good. Leah went on to become mother to half of the twelve tribes of Israel.
God can use our pain of rejection and turn it into something good. Open your heart today to our Savior.
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