This weekend I will help my dad sort through years of memories as we decide what to keep or give away. Then we will pack those memories in boxes where they will be moved to a new location – the new home for mom and dad.
Both plagued with health issues, mom and dad need to live in a smaller environment with no steps. So they will be leaving their townhome and downsizing for the second time in ten years to an apartment.
This move will be difficult for me because they will be living almost an hour away. After my first visit, the long trip home will be longer, and I will have time to reflect on this change and the ones that came before it.
Over the past year, the Alzheimer’s disease has taken over mom’s body, making her more dependent on my dad, sister and I. She has slowly gone from being “mom” to “child”. Dad’s health is steady, but he, too, is relying more on us siblings.
My emotional state is that of a mom letting go of her children as they move away from home for the first time. That may not be a fair statement because I have no children, but that’s how I feel.
It’s easy to forget this move is not about me, but them. In their new setting, they will receive assistance and care and be surrounded by friends who will watch over them when I cannot. It is the right move for them.
But yet I fear. I fear for their safety, I fear the long distance and I fear their decline in health.
A story in John 2 made me realize that fear is causing me to focus only on what I can see and leaving God out of the picture.
At a wedding that Jesus attended, his mother came to him with a problem. There was no more wine.
At this time in history, weddings lasted a week. The host was expected to provide food and wine for the entire celebration, and it would cause embarrassment to run out of provisions.John 2:5
The lack of wine concerned Mary. She wished no shame to come upon the host or his family so she took the problem to Jesus.
When Jesus asked her why she came to him with the issue, she did not answer. Instead, she turned to the servants and instructed them to do what Jesus asked of them.
Mary did not tell Jesus how to fix the problem. She simply told him the problem then trusted him to do what was needed to rectify the situation.
Mary’s actions remind me to give my fear to God and trust that he will do what is best.
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