At one time I knew nothing about Alzheimer’s disease. It was something foreign to me and only happened to other people. I walked blissfully through life unaware of the disease’s impact. Until my mom was diagnosed with it.
I bought books, asked questions and sought advice. But arming myself with knowledge was not enough. I had to experience the sorrow and pain of watching mom slowly lose her memory.
There was no question that I would be one of her caregivers. But even as I knew this valley we walked through was part of God’s plan, I still brought my concerns to Him.
“I can’t do this,” I cried. This disease was like a tall mountain that threatened to crush me as I tried to climb it. I felt too small and unqualified to give mom the care she needed.
So now, go. I am sending you to Pharaoh to bring my people the Israelites out of Egypt.” – Exodus 3:10
God chose Moses to free the Israelites. But he must have felt the task was too big for him, because he had many objections.
But Moses said to God, “Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?” – Exodus 3:11 (NIV)
I don’t know how
Moses said to God, “Suppose I go to the Israelites and say to them, ‘The God of your fathers has sent me to you,’ and they ask me, ‘What is his name?’ Then what shall I tell them?” – Exodus 3:13 (NIV)
No one will believe me
Moses answered, “What if they do not believe me or listen to me and say, ‘The Lord did not appear to you’?” – Exodus 4:1 (NIV)
I cannot speak
Moses said to the Lord, “Pardon your servant, Lord. I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.” – Exodus 4:10
I am not qualified
But Moses said, “Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.” – Exodus 4:13 (NIV)
With every objection Moses had, God responded with provision and help. God did not expect Moses to lead the Israelites out of Egypt on his own. He always intended be with Moses and provide him with tools and helpers.
God also provides us with whatever we need when climbing our mountains.
And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work. – 2 Corinthians 9:8
A year and a half ago, mom left us for heaven. Looking back, I see all of the help God provided us, especially the days where we felt helpless and no idea what to do. He sent us wonderful people who provided guidance when we were lost and gave us the resources needed to help us care for mom.
He was there and he provided.
When we look beyond our insecurities and inabilities, we allow God to work through us. And he will provide us with everything we need.